one day i`ll fly away.

meh.

only one day left to exams and i haven`t studied have only flipped through lectures 1-5.

can do anything and everything except study. hence the previous 2 posts. blogging, looking at literary quotes and lame jokes. anything to avoid studying.

meh.

and today?
cravingggggs.









zomg the pictures. drooool.

can`t find pictures of the smaller ones ala icecube. ):

ICE CUBE CHEESE STICKS PLSSS!

k, shall move my ass and go study.

go.

teehee!

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:D hee!

quote.

"What about little microphones? What if everyone swallowed them, and they played the sounds of our hearts through little speakers which could be in the pouches of our overalls? When you skateboarded down the street at night you could hear everyone's heartbeat and they could hear yours, sort of like sonar. One weird thing is, I wonder if everyone's hearts would start to beat at the same time, ... , except that the place in the hospital where babies are born would sound like a crystal chandelier in a houseboat, because the babies wouldn't have had the time to match up their heartbeats yet. And at the finish line at the end of the New York City Marathon it would sound like war."

- What The?, pg 1

"In bed that night I invented a special drain that would be underneath every pillow in New York, and would connect to the reservoir. Whenever people cried themselves to sleep, the tears would all go to the same place, and in the morning the weatherman could report if the water level of the Reservoir of Tears had gone up or down, and you could know if New York was in heavy boots. And when something really terrible happened - like a nuclear bomb, or at least a biological weapons attack - an extremely loud siren would go off, telling everyone to get to Central Park to put sandbags around the reservoir."

- Googoplex, pg 38

"No matter how much I feel, I'm not going to let it out. If I have to cry, I'm gonna cry on the inside. If I have to bleed, I'll bruise. If my heart starts going crazy, I'm not gonna tell everyone in the world about it. It doesn't help anything. It just makes everyone's life worse."

- Happiness, Happiness, pg 203

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no mood.
boo.

scratchy throat.

"because that is the nature of love, because one walks alone
through the ruins of the heart, because the young must sleep

with their eyes open, because the angels tremble
from so much beauty, because memory moves in orbits

of absence, because she holds her hands out in the rain,
and rain remembers nothing, not even how it became itself."

i must.

i will be able to accept it. i know i will. even if it kills me along the way, i`ll get through. help me Jesus.
go ahead, be happy. i want that for you, more than anything.
i never meant it when i said "my opinion matters."
it should be enough, just to see you happy.
love.
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and it has begun, one by one. i need something to hold on to. Daddy. ):

frustrated.

i am not happy.
and i am not happy that i`m not happy.

i think that you should be less selfish cos its not like you don`t have anyone else. but then, if i say that, i should tell myself to be less selfish, in order to not have double standard. and since i don`t think i can do that, i shouldn`t expect that from you.
i think i`m a selfish person. but with nothing to be selfish about anymore. bloody pathetic. don`t like being a loser. gahh.
and i think i`m stupidly naive. ommission of facts that you knew would lead me to believe something else is very close to a lie in my opinion. i hate being lied to cos it makes me seem fucking stupid. i hate lies but no, i`m not angry.
damn frustrated. just accept it. can it be so damned difficult? damn it, ding.
need to learn how to let go. must be able to let go before you decide to let go of me. when, not if.

my lovelies. (:

today was a happy day.
spent with my lovelies. ((:

and yes tsehwee, you are super efficient. all the photos in the album alr. i am very impressed. heh. :D

kbox.













was late. opps. =/









solo! hee!



giggles. :D

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group pics i love. :D



step step step step.





uhh.. with jay chou. HAHA!

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after dinner, went to cck park. got freaked out by this. here`s your 15 seconds of fame, slug.



then went abit mad. :D


strong ding.


ehh not strong enough. HAHA!





all strong! except tsehwee. hahaha! lousy.













had so much fun!
love you all much. (:

and i kinda miss the times where i used to painstakingly photoshop everything so beautifully. am too lazy now. poot.

"hey lloyd, i`m ready to be heart broken"

"你不爱我　是我舍不得
是我不配　为你在狼狈
你不爱我　你真的不爱我
尽力而为我拼命给也是浪费"

stop.

oh stop it, ding.
stop thinking so much. you know how its like.
it already happened. deal with it.
que sera sera.
whatever will be will be. so just let it be.

temperment.

You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament

Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace. You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions. You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected. It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional. You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others. While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well. At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything. You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams. You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.

What Temperment Are You?

it weirds me out when i do rubbish stuff like this and some things come out true.
the last line especially. oh my hat. haha!

phlegmatic:
"cool, calm, self-possessed," and in a more pejorative sense, "cold, dull, apathetic,"

reflections.

reading it through
it seems trivial and petty.

if i were to explain it
it would sound ridiculous.

but those are what i felt
no matter how selfish stupid it is.

and i do realise that
i can`t just say all that.
i`m not perfect either.

i shouldn`t say that
when maybe i`m to blame.

i take back my words
no need for worry or guilt.

just know that i treasure you
and love you still.


thank you(s) for loving me.

game.

okay nez... here`s the thingy. even though we`ve both done it before remember?! gahhhh. you just want to torture me by making me think of ten things right? pooot.

Rules of the game:

Each player of the game starts off with ten
weird things or habits or known facts abt
yourself. People who get tagged must write
it in a blog of their own ten weird things or
habits or little known facts as well as state
this rule clearly. At the end you must choose
6 people to be tagged and list their names.
No tag backs.


1. i want to be a travelling gypsy. :D i want to go everywhere and anywhere. as long as it is quite civilised, like with toilets and stuff. heh. not really interested to go to snake infested jungles and all. heh.

2. my room is such a mess. actually, just my sofabed and my desk. but still, its so damned messy that its messy enough for the whole room. and i haven`t cleaned it for like, ten thousand years. its an embarrasment. gahh. so i don`t let people come to my house. heh. except inez cos she doesn`t care and i`m thick-skinned around her. (which means i am normally thin-skinned. :D)

3. i get irritated by people not using "your" and "you`re" correctly. but its become such a norm that sometimes i don`t even notice anymore. ): and i think i can be quite fussy when it comes to grammar.

4. i broke my nail on the fourth finger a few days ago. and it broke at the pinkish part so i couldn`t just cut it away right? so i just left it there to protect the flesh or whatever. and now, the nail is growing for where it broke off. so i sort of have two layers of nail. HAHAHAHA!

5. i have never clubbed. hahaha. sounds quite suaku but i don`t care cos hummy also. :D

6. i am currently in my longest period of singlehood. (excluding ages 0-11) its been four years. and somehow, i don`t think its gonna end soon. is it weird that i haven`t been attracted to any guy for serious? whatev, not my fault. all i see are pretty girls. handsome guys are extinct? poot.

7. i am loud but i don`t talk well, which is why i don`t talk alot. (really. don`t laugh.) but i can listen well. i think? =/

8. i don`t like when the toilet paper rolls from under and not above. and toilet paper should have dotted lines for you to tear from. i hate it when don`t have and i will try my best to tear in a straight line. and i fold neatly, not scrunch. and oh! my toilet has blue water now. HAHA! and i think this is too much info on toilets. heh.

9. i am bored of this.

10. i am lazy to tag and this is so hard to finish that i won`t pass it on. heh.