awesome grace.

aahhhh!

:D :D :D

*beams widely* ((:

ding is very happy. and will remain that way forever. (:

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geez. where do i start. (:

OH MY GOD, I LOVE GOD!! haha!

okay okay.

i finally feel like me again. (: i finally fully feel.

like someone who is shortsighted for so long and finally got specs. the fullness of what he sees. the colours. the tones. the vibrancy. the clarity.

knowing Him and His love for me is one thing. its like me going about without specs. i can see, but it is blurred. it is not clear. it is fuzzy. it doesn`t seem definite. i know that something is there, but i can`t really see what. i may see a bus coming, but i do not know the number. i get confused.

but actually knowing in my heart, His awesome love for me, is another thing. everything becomes clear. now i know that that what i see is right. i no longer doubt if the bus number i see is 15 or 76. i know. i am certain, i am sure.

the analogy is not very good laa. not everyone is shortsighted and no, wearing specs is not nice. but ya. i never want to go about my life without seeing clearly anymore. i don`t want to wander about hazily without opening my eyes and taking a good clear look. i have a destiny, a destination. and i will open the eyes of my heart and walk in that direction.

but i know, that even if i stumble (slumber, HAHA!), Jesus is still here with me. no matter how far i`ve run astray, i can never run out of the palm of his hand. for my Daddy God never leaves me.

and no matter how low i`ve dropped. no matter how far i`ve gone from his destiny for me. my Daddy is faithful and He will bring me back. it is in His faith that my faith grows. in the same way as it is through His love that i so love him.

a huge step, a breakthrough, a fresh touch, a refreshing, an awakening, an awesome God. (:

Daddy, you never fail to amaze me by the way you work. haha! (:

love,
ding the darling of Jesus, the favoured and the blessed. (: