timetable out.

ooh. lookie.

timetable`s out.

mon - 9 to 3
tue - 9 to 4
wed - 9 to 1
thur - 11 to 4
fri - 9 to 12

bah. must wake up early early. ): jialat.

and i don`t think i can skip lectures already. haha.

almost died after skipping almost all last sem. ding needs to be a lil more hardworking. heh.

i have ferlin and ng yg for the law subjects. oh my.. who`s ng yg? eileen ng ahh? ahh boo. very mean la that one.

oh wells. another sem of school. gotta wake up at 6 almost everyday. bah. ):

and alamak. if i end sch at 12 on fridays, then i have to wait for 7 hours to attend cg ahh? walao! )):

anyways, ya. gonna sleep. (:
and i`m dreading school alr.

starting sch soon

heh. finished working alr. (:

was selling cakes. haha i know.. mooncakes first then now cakes.

but yaas, finally finished everything. (: should have gotten close to 500 but now i think its less than 400.. boo. cos i pon laaa. heh. and if sold out then close early. bah. my money.... )):

but yaa. cannot spend the money also.. cos.. uhh. ya. cannot. Daddy, its in your hands.

sigh sigh. school`s starting soon. gah.

and i don`t have back to school clothes. boohoo.

and i`m not looking forward to school. i want to graduate soon pls.

actually, no. if i graduate then i`ll have to think of what i`m gonna do after that. and if i can even have a choice. or maybe i`ll just be stuck with having to work. then have to find job.. then no social life.. then no time for myself to be alone.. grr.

i think i just want to fall in love, get married, have children and have a wondeful life. hah.

anyways, ya. i`m going to sleep now. and i`ll only be concious again at 3 in the afternoon or something.

hmm, maybe i just want to sleep non-stop.

at home, outside. material, immaterial. worry, hurt. lost, lost. Daddy, you hold my hand and you love me. you never leave me. you`re with me all the time. i`m never alone. you`ll take care of me. i know you will. love you.

no more work.

i`m not working anymore. haha. actually i stopped yesterday. when i was supposed to end tmr.

aiyaa. had some disagreement with the boss. oh wells. =/

but boo. that`s $180 gone just like that. GAH.

but whatever la.. i just want to get my pay soon. (:

anyways, going on a shopping trip this sunday! hee! have to skip church tho. =/ aiyaa. inez laa. going back to indonesia and then to china and coming back 2 weeks after sch starts and all.. silly goon. heh.

and yesyes, gonna buy the heels, the rings and the tops! and of course, we`ll be trying clothes everywhere we go. whoo! damn exciting. and plspls, can we have arab street after that? :D damn shiok. can`t wait la!!

marina square, heeren, wisma, far east, bugis, arab street!

and oh, i`m sad. ): cos i look crappy in skinnies. bah. where oh where is that oh-so-nice esprit jeans? )):

on a side note, i`m very annoyed by this conversation i heard while i was working.

dad: come on, let`s go.
daughter: *whines* but i want to see! i want to see lanterns!
dad: *raised his voice* NO! i said let`s go!! daddy go and smoke first!
daughter: *tries to stay rooted on the spot in front of the lantern shop*
dad: we`re going outside NOW! *practically dragged the girl away*

ARGHHH! so angry can?! stupid ass of a chimney! your daughter just wants like what, a few minutes to look at the lanterns but all you can think about is smoking and even scolded her loudly. ugh. bastard.

i know that i shouldn`t stereotype, but this makes me not like smokers so much more. bah.

yes, i know that my friends smoke. but aiyaa. if they don`t want to stop there`s nothing i can do. i like the person they are but not the smoker in them. so yes. close one eye.

i see grace.

i see grace,
sealed by Your sacrifice
i see love,
reaching for me
precious blood,
washes and sanctifies
healing flows,
setting me free
i see grace

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oh daddy, none of me and all of you. not of my works but of yours and you in me. teach me Jesus. i want to know you more.

women's meeting

of looking to God for love, acknowledgement and acceptance instead of trying to find it in man/people.

that was the sermon for today`s women`s meeting, which was really good. (:

had an awesome time at the praise and worship after that as well. ((:

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daddy, what was taught today really ministered to me and i just want to be ever so conscious of your love for me lor. that even when i`m not acknowledged or loved, even when i feel alone and unwanted, i will remember your love demonstrated for me at the cross. i know that it is useless seeking attention and acceptance from people cos we are all humans and we fail. but i thank you daddy, that your love is a steadfast and secure love. a love that will last through all eternity.

daddy, i just cast my cares into your hands. even when i don`t belong anywhere, i know that you are with me and i`m not alone. even if it hurts to be alone, when it makes me feel unloved and unwanted, daddy remind me every new day of your wonderful love for me.

daddy, only you know what`s best for me. your thoughts for me are of a future and of a hope. you will know what to do. be it restoration in this area or a new beggining. daddy, you take over, take control. i place everything on you hands and i know that it will be good.

all i need is you Lord.