quick one

okay, quick update!


HAPPY 19TH TO MY BELOVED YEETSEHWEE! :D :D


i NEED to start photoshopping soon, with the 171 photos taken on tsehwee`s birthday. EVERYONE else updated alr!! AHHHHHHHH. die.

MERRY CHRISTMAS! (:

had a yummy dinner at home on christmas eve and was late for the countdown at mich`s house. :/ no, didn`t countdown with the taxi driver. HAHA.

unexepected change of plans and back to my house it was. nuah-ed the WHOLE christmas away. HAHAHAHAHA. :D

clubbing at arena later! i hope the bloody live band thing is not there again. go away the remix, i don`t like you. and dj please play better songs.

okay! off to do my brows which i have postponed for the longest time.

bye!

its 4 days to christmas! (:

and we just set up the christmas tree. heh. its been i think 7 years since we put up the tree and we really had to diggggg before we could find all the parts. HAHA.

now my tree is pretty with the weird fiber optic light thing which i don`t quite like, old school decorations from more than 10 years ago and pine cones which i just found out don`t grow upright but kinda upside down. heh.

anyways, busy busy! towning with mich and hummy yest, which wasn`t really successful although mich did get her sexy heels in the end. :D

bugis with nez and kelly today. very accomplished! :D very tired also. :/

will be busy tmr and the day after too but i need to do my brows!! unkempt!

okay, rubbish update and been a long while since i had a nice update with pictures.

but i`m sure there`ll be pics tmr. :D

sick duck.

*sniffle sniffle*


*SNEEEEEZE*


*cough cough COUGH cough*


*sniffle sniffle*


*COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH x 10*


rarrrrrr. bloody hell. I AM A SICK DUCK! )):


sick for 5(FIVE) days alr?! oh nossssss..

went to school for the first time yesterday since school started, heh, and after that spent the whole day trying to cure my flu/cough/cold by today.

pei pa kao, vicks vapodrops lozenges (butter menthol flavour, weird. :/), woods lozenges, bloody disgusting tasting 24 herbs chinese tea, manuka honey (: , plain porridge for dinner (which i cheated on cos i added soya sauce and sesame oil, heh. but only a little!) and early rest.

and today? COUGH COUGH COUGH! rarrr! so angry ahh! i`m supposed to go partying tonight hor! why you cough cough cough? why????? ))))):

on a happier note, i think i have decided on what to wear later. (: i really cannot wear that almost skin tone dress laaa. it is pretty but the colour is.... mehh. so i`m gonna wear this colourful prettiful dress. :D yayyy! that is, IF i`m still going laaa.

oh! woe is me! ))))):

okay, off to go eat febs and somemore lozenges in hope that i`ll be well by this evening. (: they don`t have laxative effects do they? :/

/edit. okay, scratch that. i can`t pull of the colourful dress. bahh. dreary dress it is then.

26/11/07

its been ages since the last update.

things that happened:

6/11 daz meet up.
rushed down after work, watched stardust. awesome show, awesome time. :D

9/11 dinner at sua`s recommendation, Veri Good.
HAHAHAHAHA. siao, the name is damn funny. :D and no, the food wasn`t very good. :/
waited ten thousand years for the food to come.
self entertained with our newly learned hokkien proficiency. :D

11/11 kelly fish's 19th.
((: i haven`t finished giving you your presents. can combine with christmas? heh.

17/11 dinner at aston`s + spiderweb.
the most horrible visit to astons to date. was late but they alr ordered, waited an hour in total. checked and found out they lost our order (on the floor). still had to wait about 15 mins for our food. got a medium-rare steak instead of rare. told them about it, and they changed it. to a bloody RAW piece of meat! gross!

23/11 dinner at inez's recommendation, Recess.
great place to chill, yucky wine, delicious pizza. (:
treacherous journey, long flight of stairs. heh.

24/11 my first clubbing experience. st james.
hahaha, eh don`t laugh. i am not suaku lor. it was crazy but oh so fun!
scandals, touchy touchy, barcardi, vodka, sex on the beach.
was supposed to go for the swiss open house with e2'04 but erm, clash of timings and all! poot.

25/11 brunch in bed on mattresses at 4pm with mich and jas.
yummy Rocky`s pizza which we couldn`t finish because someone force-fed us biscuits. heh. much hiding behind the pillow for that someone because of something. ;)
driving for more than an hour, sos call for help and many u-turns before picking gynn up for dinner at changi village. *faints.
many many aches on shoulders, back, waist, knees, calves and butt. :/ and weirdly, my neck too. am not old hor.

26/11 skipped work.
my 3rd and final mc. slept till 330. madness i know. :/


things happening soon:

27/11 paycheck pls!
bloody measly $418. poot.

/28/11 clubbing. powerhouse.
ladies night with daz lovelies. (:

30/11 end of sip.
oh my hat, finally!
bbq at gerard`s place. yay, pretty house.

2/12 churching.
hello sam! lets go church again after like, TWO whole months or something. heh. i promised bok!

3/12 start school, sem 3.2.
ALL SAME CLASS! woo! erm, with a couple of exceptions laa. HAHAHA. :D both of you know i still love you righttt? heh heh. :D

8/12 clubbing. the arena.
free entry + freeflow drinks. :D no, i`m not a clubber. am a good girl. really.
hummy can i have you as my dance partner? (((:

okay time to sleep. work tmr. FOUR MORE DAYS ONLY! :D

/edit. oh my hat. my dearest daz wants to go clubbing on wednesday. ladies night woo! HAHA. i think i might die the next day. :/

and somewhere along the way, my eyes finally opened and i finally accepted it and let it go. but surely that agony/confusion/mess was better than this emptiness?

5th of November

"Who? Who is but the form following the function of what, and what I am is a man in a mask."

"Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin van-guarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition."

"The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous."

"Vi Veri Veniversum Vivus Vici."
"By the power of truth, I, while living, have conquered the universe."

"Remember, remember, the Fifth of November, the Gunpowder Treason and Plot. I know of no reason why the Gunpowder Treason should ever be forgot.."

balancing act

right now it seems like
i have to balance on this
thin taut wire so high

above the ground;
much care has to be taken
to avoid falling off.

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cute.

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18(-1) days more.
am sick being here. in both senses of the word.

not like this.

its amazing how the littlest things can make you happy or sad.

how five seconds can be worth more than 5 weeks.
how the absence of a smile can bring your whole week down.

it should not be like this.

picking myself apart up.

aimless

rarrr! no flip flops. still have to pay split cost of the international calls. bahh. if i knew earlier i would`ve joined another spree for them pls. urgh.

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i think i should listen to the advice i give myself every morning and go home after work. i am seriously so lethargic everyday. always late for work, come to office sit down and feel like sleeping, and i think i`ve been having alot of careless mistakes in my work. and i can`t seem to remember what the lawyer asks me to do like, 15 mins after he tells me. huh. my brains seems foggy.

i think i shall go home to sleep today. but that`s what i say everyday. oh well.

and oh! i found a pretty girl's blog. yay.
usa, hk, singapore. (:

sip pls be over soon. i`m bored sick of you.

yes, i do realise that this is such an aimless and meaningless post.

okay

it should be quite
obvious
apparent
inyourface
alr.
things don`t have to be this way.

it stares right back.

10/10

don`t like sip.
for many reasons; more than one.
don`t like the way things are.
without it; it might have been different.

but that`s the way it is and who am i to complain.
its not like any of us wants it this way ... right?
i hope.
i don`t know how i feel about
these new things
i find out about myself.

11/09/07

ahh. these are way way way overdue. like, 12 days late. heh.

its cos of sip laaa! workworkwork, then no time.

anyways, thanks loves for that day. (:

its been 5(+2) years, and i hope it goes on till forever. (:



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on a side note, workworkwerk has been boring. sip end quickly pls. (:

and oh, i must mention that i`m proud of myself for the layout done on jasmine`s blog. yay ding. (:

19th birthday.

thank you CRAZIES for celebrating my birthday. ((:

and yes, i was super surprised when you all (jas, hummy and mich) came to my house. cos none of you actually know where i stay and you all are scheming cos you roped in my brother and my mum against me. HAHA.

and feel honoured k? no one (except the family) has seen me in towel alone. zomg. you people are crazy. i feel exposed. HAHAHA.

thanks for the presents. love it but love you all more. :D

can`t imagine what 3rd year would be like without you all. really love much. (:

and oh, thanks for not sabo-ing me. :D teehee!

okay sip soon. meet up every week hor. :D

bbq this friday, play bubbles k? :D you all will use the blow one, while i have the battery operated one. HAHAHA. and also play mustaches k? hee!

i love that we are crazy. :D
miss you all even though sip hasn`t even started. poot.

it is 4+ am and i have meeting with my darlings at 10. ahh!

apologies.

i apologise for my horrible mood today, that had no apparent reason.
and for walking out halfway.
truly i am sorry. ):
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but i`m okay alr.

"Cos if I died tonight
Would you still hold my hand, no
Would you understand
And if i lied in spite
Would you still be here, no
Would you disappear"

i need to stand on my own. but i need someone to ground me as well.

would you watch me die?

don`t let go. please.

sometimes.

sometimes its difficult.
difficult to understand what is A and what is C.
difficult to understand why B is not the constant state, but D.
difficult to to change G to A. or even just C. or to even know how.
difficult to even understand yourself.
无所适从。):
the tables turn so fast sometimes.
to be 无忧无虑。

one day i`ll fly away.

meh.

only one day left to exams and i haven`t studied have only flipped through lectures 1-5.

can do anything and everything except study. hence the previous 2 posts. blogging, looking at literary quotes and lame jokes. anything to avoid studying.

meh.

and today?
cravingggggs.









zomg the pictures. drooool.

can`t find pictures of the smaller ones ala icecube. ):

ICE CUBE CHEESE STICKS PLSSS!

k, shall move my ass and go study.

go.

teehee!

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:D hee!

quote.

"What about little microphones? What if everyone swallowed them, and they played the sounds of our hearts through little speakers which could be in the pouches of our overalls? When you skateboarded down the street at night you could hear everyone's heartbeat and they could hear yours, sort of like sonar. One weird thing is, I wonder if everyone's hearts would start to beat at the same time, ... , except that the place in the hospital where babies are born would sound like a crystal chandelier in a houseboat, because the babies wouldn't have had the time to match up their heartbeats yet. And at the finish line at the end of the New York City Marathon it would sound like war."

- What The?, pg 1

"In bed that night I invented a special drain that would be underneath every pillow in New York, and would connect to the reservoir. Whenever people cried themselves to sleep, the tears would all go to the same place, and in the morning the weatherman could report if the water level of the Reservoir of Tears had gone up or down, and you could know if New York was in heavy boots. And when something really terrible happened - like a nuclear bomb, or at least a biological weapons attack - an extremely loud siren would go off, telling everyone to get to Central Park to put sandbags around the reservoir."

- Googoplex, pg 38

"No matter how much I feel, I'm not going to let it out. If I have to cry, I'm gonna cry on the inside. If I have to bleed, I'll bruise. If my heart starts going crazy, I'm not gonna tell everyone in the world about it. It doesn't help anything. It just makes everyone's life worse."

- Happiness, Happiness, pg 203

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no mood.
boo.

scratchy throat.

"because that is the nature of love, because one walks alone
through the ruins of the heart, because the young must sleep

with their eyes open, because the angels tremble
from so much beauty, because memory moves in orbits

of absence, because she holds her hands out in the rain,
and rain remembers nothing, not even how it became itself."

i must.

i will be able to accept it. i know i will. even if it kills me along the way, i`ll get through. help me Jesus.
go ahead, be happy. i want that for you, more than anything.
i never meant it when i said "my opinion matters."
it should be enough, just to see you happy.
love.
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and it has begun, one by one. i need something to hold on to. Daddy. ):

frustrated.

i am not happy.
and i am not happy that i`m not happy.

i think that you should be less selfish cos its not like you don`t have anyone else. but then, if i say that, i should tell myself to be less selfish, in order to not have double standard. and since i don`t think i can do that, i shouldn`t expect that from you.
i think i`m a selfish person. but with nothing to be selfish about anymore. bloody pathetic. don`t like being a loser. gahh.
and i think i`m stupidly naive. ommission of facts that you knew would lead me to believe something else is very close to a lie in my opinion. i hate being lied to cos it makes me seem fucking stupid. i hate lies but no, i`m not angry.
damn frustrated. just accept it. can it be so damned difficult? damn it, ding.
need to learn how to let go. must be able to let go before you decide to let go of me. when, not if.

my lovelies. (:

today was a happy day.
spent with my lovelies. ((:

and yes tsehwee, you are super efficient. all the photos in the album alr. i am very impressed. heh. :D

kbox.













was late. opps. =/









solo! hee!



giggles. :D

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group pics i love. :D



step step step step.





uhh.. with jay chou. HAHA!

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after dinner, went to cck park. got freaked out by this. here`s your 15 seconds of fame, slug.



then went abit mad. :D


strong ding.


ehh not strong enough. HAHA!





all strong! except tsehwee. hahaha! lousy.













had so much fun!
love you all much. (:

and i kinda miss the times where i used to painstakingly photoshop everything so beautifully. am too lazy now. poot.

"hey lloyd, i`m ready to be heart broken"

"你不爱我　是我舍不得
是我不配　为你在狼狈
你不爱我　你真的不爱我
尽力而为我拼命给也是浪费"