my fault?

hmm.

i was really wishing and hoping that everything would be okay.. but i guess that was being pretty unrealistic.

i guess its not possible for things to just fall back to what it was before. i guess i wasn`t being sensitive enough to figure out that its not gonna be easy to just leave it just like that.

if there`s anything i can do to make it easier, i`d do it.. really.

but i have a feeling that there`s nothing i can do to make it any easier, any better. i think i`ll only be making things worse.

truly, i do not want things this way.

now that everything`s shit, i don`t know if its cos of me or cos if something else. and even if its my fault, i don`t know what i should/can do.

damn, this is hard.

little wonder then, that i kow for a fact that i`m not ready. i just cannot deal with such stuff. maybe i`ll never be able to deal with such matters concerning the heart. bah. a failure, ding.

i`m sorry.

so not perfect.