so angry.

rarr. i am so damn angry. D:<

i absolutely cannot take it when my brother is so damn rude to me. ARGH!

i won`t say that i`m a very good sister or what, but seriously, i don`t expect to take that kind of shit from him k. wth la.

my relationship with my brother can be compared to that of an abusive boyfriend i think. like, you know that he`s gonna give you shit soon but you just love him and be nice to him, knowing clearly that he`s gonna slap you in the face soon. knowing that you treasure this more than he does. rarr.

i know it sounds damn weird but that`s how i feel. like i`m nice to him and giving in to him/them just cos i know that if i do anything about it he`ll blow up and start spouting shit that oozes with sacarsm. damn it la. i`m older than you where the hell are your manners pls?

and not that i wanna be damn calculating of what k, but come on. i`ve defended from the parents how many times. even when you throw your temper at them i still say that you have a point in the argument even if it does get me on their bad side. but what do you do? you give the same shit back to me!

you think you own the whole world or something man. like your stupid mapling is so damn more important than whatever i have to do. fine, even if i`m not doing anything productive online, its my computer. so stfu. i really get damn pissed when you just come over and say "wahh jie, shopping again?" or "what are you doing? so weird/boring/etc." and you just sit down and look at me use the net, clearly giving out vibes that you wanna use the com. gahh.

and the worst part is, this isn`t a abusive boyfriend relationship. i can`t just up and walk away from you/this. that`s why its been happening again and again and its getting so bad that no one actually dares to stand up to you and reprimand you in fear of your horrible dreadful anger.

and because this isn`t an abusive boyfriend relationship but a flesh and blood sibling/family one, i do still love you. just that you`re shit to live with seriously. and i can`t take it anymore.

i`m not gonna let you step all over me. i`ve had enough. if you don`t wanna treat me with respect or as a sister, neither will i.

let the cold wars begin. i don`t really care anymore.